Monday, April 16, 2007

I don't know

I don't know what has to misfire in the brain for anybody to kill 30 people. But then again I don't know what has to misfire in the brain of a president for him to kill hundreds of thousands of people either. I hate the apathy and ignorance of my country that gave the keys of power (TWICE) to such and obvious and complete idiot. I don't know what the political world would be like today had American leadership gone to the hands of somebody who entered politics to serve the people's best interests but I know I'd feel more optimistic.

I don't know why some of my once closest friends don't communicate with me anymore. I am fortunate to have many amazing and caring people who I feel privileged to count among my friends and acquaintances but the ones that felt like my family that have just cut me off without a word still stink and frustrate me.

I don't know why I still come here and write things for you to read. I think it's nice that I'm still part of your daily routine and at times it makes me feel a bit less alone in the world to hear from you. It's nice to have a voice even if it is a small one.

It's hard to come to terms with the fact that the earth's population surge and pollution have scientists predicting that we don't have the capacity to undo the permanent damage we've inflicted on the planet.

I do know that life will seem a bit better if I take my dogs to the park and sit in the sun on the green grass.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I wish sitting in the sun would make me feel better. It used to when I was with you in the park. You know my situation and daily it gets worse, so I've been distant. It may seem silly that I write you here, but I do read this often and laugh (at the Jesus contest stuff) and smile when I think of you. I hope we're still family even though I've needed some space. It's not about friend repellant. I still consider you my brother.
- Lady R

ladyb said...

My brain wants to spoon your brain.

Chai said...

Regd communication, sometimes it's not cos of you. Sometimes it's a new baby, new job, new life, new g/f, new crisis, new outlook, new priorities etc.... which takes time from reading blogs.