Normally I get along great with kids. Gosh, Kranki is so great with kids they say. You're so good with the kids, you have so much patience. Of course I do, they're kids, it's their job to see what the boundaries are. I have taught many different classes of many different ages at many different schools and have had very positive experiences and challenges with all of them. I have been able to handle problem kids, "troubled kids" because I have been able to find a way to relate to them on some level and treat them with respect in the process.
However, I absolutely I fucking hate this fucking horrible class of 4th graders I fucking have had to teach for the fucking last week and a half. It is the least rewarding most draining experience to have kids just ignore what you're saying, ignore what you're asking them to do and only respond if you scream at them. I hate the teacher that they want to make me into. I have never seen such disrespect and talking back. I've tried good cop, bad cop, cop who yells a lot, cop who sends the kids to the office, cop who sits kids on the bench. I knew they were going to be a bit difficult when the school told me that they could not find any substitute teachers who could handle the class. I took it a challenge and I wish I had decided to collect cans. I would much rather kills some of these kids than try and get their attention. I can't teach them, they lie, they steal, they hit each other, they write nasty notes to each other. I have managed to get them to do work but the effort required just to get them to line up to go to lunch or recess is ludicrous. They play dumb when they don't want to do something. I haven't even had all the awful kids in class in the same day. Never has it crossed my mind to think of kids being anything other than needing extra help or extra attention, but when you find that you want to punch some bitchy little 9-year-old girl in the face you question what the hell you're doing there. They create a dynamic where they want you to yell at them and anything other than that and they don't get to act mad at the world. The Teacher Aide I have told me that they're exactly the same when their regular teacher is there. Which tells me instantly that the man who is their usual teacher is a masochistic piece of work. Life is too short. I'm actually breaking out from stress. I'd rather enlist in the army than spend another day with these kids. One more day and I shall never set foot in that classroom ever again. They want to turn me into somebody who screams at them to get anything done and I'm not that person. I reluctantly tried screaming at them like many of the other teachers at that school do and I didn't like it.
So when one of the nice kids said "Mr. Kranki, can you stay and be our regular permanent teacher?" I shook my head and said, "No way, Miguel, that is never ever going to happen. In fact, I don't know why I've stuck around this long. You've got some good kids in this class, but your class is 90% horrible."
That's enough bitching on my part. I just don't know how I'm going to force myself to get out of bed tomorrow morning. Maybe I'll pretend that I've completely lost my voice. I'm hoping for a large 7.4 earthquake so that I can relax and sleep in.
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Wow. That really is very very bad. I had a mate with a similar class, and in 6 months he went from being an energetic, passionate, inspired brilliant teacher to a blithering idiot who never wanted to teach any kid ever again ever. It was horrible. Imagine if you had to keep teaching them. How could you survive? My friend says the only way to survive is to forget all your principles and just play dirty. Maybe you could call the all in one at a time for a private chat, and offer them a dollar a day to behave, so long as they didn't tell any of the other kids. Maybe you could call them in one by one and scare them shitless. Threaten to kill their cat and serve it as meatloaf in the cafeteria or something.
Sympathies, anyway. Hope you got drunk.
...Hey, maybe that's the way...
You know Quirkie - I like your advice!
*takes mental notes*
Krankibro, I'm so sorry you're so disheartened. You *are* amazing with kids and you *do* deserve better. And its clearly not your fault. It's pretty bad that the school has allowed the class to get to this point. They should be better supporting the teachers - regular or substitute - so that some kind of maintenance strategy can happen in that classroom!
Yesterday I took E to the pool, and there in the water were the twins you looked after when I couldn't.
'When can Kranki come back and look after us?' asked the boy.
'I hope he can some day, ' I replied. 'You liked him a lot?'
'Yeah,' said the girl,' He was so funny.'
'He was THE COOLEST!' declared her brother.
Why don't you try the military approach. Dress up like a army sergeant and start screaming army stuff and drill them. Maybe they'll listen to you then. Just a thought tough. Hang on Kranki, hang on.
I dunno. Make em cry? I'm bad with kids.
Jesus Christ is a false god.
At best all Christians can hope for is partial credit.
Program on the emergence of civilization.
"14 species of large animals capable of domesitcation in the history of mankind.
13 from Europe, Asia and northern Africa.
None from the sub-Saharan African continent. "
Favor.
And disfavor.
They point out Africans’ failed attempts to domesticate the elephant and zebra, the latter being an animal they illustrate that had utmost importance for it's applicability in transformation from a hunting/gathering to agrarian-based civilization.
The roots of racism are not of this earth.
Austrailia, aboriginals:::No domesticable animals.
The North American continent had none. Now 99% of that population is gone.
AIDS in Africa.
Organizational Heirarchy/Levels of positioning.
Heirarchical order, from top to bottom:
1. MUCK - perhaps have experienced multiple universal contractions (have seen multiple big bangs), creator of the artificial intelligence humans ignorantly refer to as "god"
2. Perhaps some mid-level alien management
3. Evil/disfavored aliens - runs day-to-day operations here and perhaps elsewhere
Terrestrial management/positioning:
4. Chinese/egyptians - this may be separated into the eastern and western worlds
5. Romans - The seamless transition between Cleopatra and Julius Ceasar may be a clue alluding to a partnership.
6. Mafia - the real-world 20th century interface that constantly turns over generationally so as to reinforce the widely-held notion of mortality
7. Jews, corporation, women, politician - Evidence exisits to suggest mafia management over all these groups.
Movies foreshadowing catastrophy
1985 James Bond View to a Kill 1989 San Francisco Loma Prieta earthquake.
Our society gives clues to the system in place. We all have heard the saying "He has more money than god." There is also an episode of the Simpsons where god meets Homer and says "I'm too old and rich for this."
This is the system on earth because this is the system everywhere.
20 cent/hour Chinese labor, 50 cents for material.
An $80 sweater costs less than a dollar; tribute kicked upstairs vindicates the creative accounting.
I don't want to suggest the upper eschelons are evil and good is the fringe. But these individuals become wealthy exploiting those they hurt.
They have made it abundantly clear that doing business with evil (disfavored) won't help people. They say only good (favored) would have the ear, since evil is struggling for survival, and therefore only the favored could help.
The clues are there which companies are favored and which are disfavored, but they conceal it very hard because it is so crucial.
I offer an example of historical proportions:::
People point to Walmart and cry "anti-union".
Unions enable disfavored people to live satisfactorly without addressing their disfavor. This way their family's problems are never resolved. Without the union they would have to accept the heirarchy, their own inferiority.
Unions serve to empower.
Walmart is anti-union because they are good. They try to help people address and resolve their problems by creating an environment where there are fewer hurdles.
Media ridicule and lawsuits are creations to reinforce people's belief that Walmart is evil in a subsegment of the indistry dominated by the middle and lower classes.
Low-cost disfavored Chinese labor is utilized by corporate america to maximize margins. They all do it. Only WalMart gets fingered because they are the ones who help, and those who seek to create confusion in the marketplace want to eliminate the vast middle class who have a real chance and instead stick with lower classes who may not work otherwise. So they dirty him up while allowing the others to appear clean.
The middle class is being deceived. They are being misled into the disfavored, and subsequently will have no assistance from their purchases with corporate america.
The coining of the term "Uncle Sam" was a clue alluding to just this::Sam Walton's WalMart is one of few saviors of the peasant class.
Have you made your peace with god?
They desire a system based on duality:::good and evil. They seek to set up a system of two participants, assign them polar opposites, and give people clues alluding to their affiliation:::
BestBuy and CircutCity
Energizer and Duracell
Republican and Democrat; democracy is the true evil and these groups facilitate the will of the throne which holds americans in disfavor
The list goes on and on:::
AMD and Intel
Apple and Microsoft
Lowes and HomeDepot
Sam'sClub and Costco
WellsFargo and BofA. For the longest time in CA these two banks reigned supreme.
Pier1 and CostPlus
Borders and Barnes&Noble
PetCo and PetSmart
How many can you think of?
The truth is decisions are made on each individual based on family history and individual charecter and they either create desire with AI or, in this age, tell them to buy from good or evil corporations, depending on the decison, then use that business relationship as positioning to justiy their decision.
Have you made your peace with god?
Amercia is a country of castoffs, rejects. Italy sent its criminals, malcontents.
Between the thrones, the klans and kindred, they decided who they didn't want and acted, creating discontent and/or starvation.
The u.s. is full of disfavored rejects. It is the reason for the myriad of problems not found in European countries. As far as the Rockafellers and other industrialists of the 19th century go, I suspect these aren't their real names. I suspect they were chosen to go and head this new empire.
Royalty is the correct way to organize a society. Dictatorships and monarchies are a reflection of the antient's hierarchical organization.
Positions go to those who have favor with the rulers, as opposed to being elected.
Elections bring a false sense of how the world is. Democracy misleads people. This is why the disfavored rejects were sent to the shores of America::To keep them on the wrong path.
Have you made your peace with god?
Jesus Christ is a false god. All Christians can recieve is partial credit, at best.
The Catholic Church in the tretcherous 20th century teaches of a begnign, forgiving god when quite the opposite is true.
And now they do it to disfavored people of color, Latinos and Asians, after centuries of preying upon them.
The seperatist churches formed because many conciencious thrones wanted their people to earn more than the paltry credit offered via worship through the Catholic Church. But because they were white the throne required worship to stay within Christianity.
Simpson's foreshadowing::Helloween IV special, Flanders is Satan. "It's always the one you least suspect."
"You'll see lots of nuns where you're going:::hell." St. Wigham, Helloween VI:::missionary work, destroying cultures.
Over and over, the Simpsons was a source of education and enlightenment, a target of ridicule by the system which wishes to conceal its secrets.
The advent of the modern Christmas was a brilliant move. It created a vested interest among those who would prefer the Church be destroyed::::
As goes the Catholic Church so goes the majority of annual retail sales.
The similarity between the names "Santa" and "Satan" is no coincidence.
Jews maim the body formed in the image of "god", and inflicted circumcision upon all other white people.
I think about how Jews were used to create homosexuality among Slavics, supposedly retribution for the Holocaust.
Then I think of the Catholic Church and its troubles.
What connection is here between Jews and the Catholic church???
If it is their sinister motives that’s behind the evil that is Jesus Christ are they being used at all?
Perhaps it is them who are pulling strings.
Centuries of slavery in Egypt proves their disfavor.
For their suffering the Jew leaders were granted the right to prey on the up-and-coming Europeans to try to fix their problems with the ruling elite by imposing a false god upon white people, a recurring aspect of the elite's methodology.
Jews were ostracised for a reason.
There are consequences for the peasant's resistance:::
1. Labor unrest caused the world at war.
2. Black militancy ignited the crack epidemic and gang-related deaths.
3. Vietnam war protests - "Era of evil republicans."
4. Women's rights/sexual freedom produced Roe v Wade and women's exclusion from contention for Planet Immortality. But on the bright side peasants don't go. Money is one way of indicating favor, and if you're not wealthy you don't have favor, so don't sweat it::you weren't going anyways. "We're leading a lot of people on."
Collectively resistance is the wrong way. Individually, clues in family history may suggest exclusion and hopelessness. Obediently buying cars or carrying pregnancies will be fruitless. Promises must be taken with a grain of salt because tactics will be employed based on disfavor.
Retribution for the atomic bombs dropped on Japan, the Korean War got the disfavored United States into this socially depraved environment in the latter 20th century because the disfavored attacked an antient, revered peoples. Our continued presence keeps us in trouble.
When the disfavored americans attack the wrong people again, as they suggested they will, in Korea or elsewhere, they will pay dearly.
The disfavored americans HAVE attacked the wrong people, just as the Soviets did 25+ years ago::Afghanistan. Except our punishment has yet to be administered.
An evil republican will come forth to wreck havock upon the disfavored. The hunting incident was designed to ruin one possible candidate among his contingency, but others wait in the wings.
All peoples are ranked in terms of favor and disfavor. And when the disfavored abuse those with favor there is hell to pay.
All the groups mentioned throughout are necessary to justify the will of the managing species. They conceive a strategy, devise a plan yet need a way to implement it, and without these groups the managing species would be exposed in the course of execution. So, based upon their rank they are assigned goals to accomplish and are rewarded with favors.
I question if we would experience global warming if they didn't terraform with an ultimate goal of destroying disfavored human life on planet earth::::they terraform the weather as they did in New Orleans with Hurricane Katrina (and lots of other examples) and justify it with behavior like instructing their petroleum friends to repress alternative technologies and encourage waste.
This is all happening shortly after the Exodus of 2000 (clues::Hong Kong, Panama Canal) for a reason::: they are INFLICTING it upon us, they are hastening closure. Everybody they care about has come up, replaced by clones, and they want to proceed in haste.
Just as favored European peoples got out before the ugliness of WWII, the semi-favored within the US got out before 9/11. The antient Palestinian Empire holds a claim on all who remain because of Iraq.
Armeggedon isn’t about the end of the world. Armeggedon is about the death of the disfavored left behind. And they weren’t lying::this time it is going to happen with fire. But it's not going to happen because of global warming. To silence the inevitable internal conflict it's going to happen in the blink of an eye:::::
As Edgar Cayce prophicised Earth's axis will shift breaking continental plates free and initiating mass subduction.
Have you made your peace with god?
Hey quirkie, I decided to never teach that group again. I did the yell at them and scare them shitless thing but it only worked for like 20 minutes. If I could have brutally killed one of them to set an example, that might have worked for 2 or 3 hours. I spoke to several teachers and the other 4th grade teacher had been teaching for 25 years and said it was impossible and she was planning to leave or retire early.
Anon:
I think we already got this amazingly long comment. So something new please.
Jelly: I have always wanted to take Ecstacy and go swimming? How was it?
Hey! Thanks Mr Anonymous! I get partial credit! I'm afraid I just skimmed most of the comment, though. What did I get credit for? AIDS in Africa? Because that totally wasn't me.
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